Wednesday, September 12, 2007

If you can't beat them, Join them.

I'm back on the wagon. That's right... for those of you that don't know, I am struggling with a serious Starbuck's addiction. I can't help myself - no control, none what-so-ever.

Let me paint a picture of yesterday - the day I hit rock bottom.

I had an event at lunch, so I headed out a bit late to grab some sustenance. I got a taco salad, sitting to enjoy it properly at the lunch place. It was inexpensive, so I was feeling good that I had eaten well and not surpassed my lunch budget.

When it was time to go back to work, I walked out of the restaurant.

There in front of me (duunn, duunn, dunnn) was a Starbucks.

"What harm would a little cookie do?" said the voice in my head.

No. I won't do it. I don't need it. I don't even want it.

"Just a little cookie?"

My legs begin to move mechanically towards the door.

"A cookie... it's not too expensive, you don't have to get anything to drink."

Oh, this is a bad idea. I shouldn't go in. And yet here I am, hand on the door.

"Oh, they don't have any cookies. Darn! Well then, maybe a little bit of cake."

Cake is not a cookie... I don't like where this is going. Don't order a drink. You hear me, don't order a drink!

"No, drinks... just a piece of cake."...

It came time for me to order, and I asked for the cake. Even though my mind was screaming "NOOOOOOO, don't order a drink".... those four little words escaped my lips: "Iced venti soy-chai."

That was the moment that I realized, I do NOT have control of this. This IS a problem.

So, I've got a plan. If I cannot go ONE short little week without Starbucks, then I'm going to work there. I will get a job there and let the corporate machine feed my addiction from the inside, so I can save my pennies for things I really want, like a trip to see my aunt in Maine this December, or Microsoft Office for my new computer, or even *gasp!* money in my savings account!

I made it to work today by repeating in my head "Starbucks uses spoiled milk." There's nothing grosser to me than spoiled food, so I'm hoping that will work for awhile.

If not, then I'm just gonna get a job there.

2 comments:

Addiction-Rehab said...

Here's a website you may find useful. http://www.addicted.com is a site for friends, families, and those who suffer from various addictions.

Kathryn said...

Wow! This is really a great website for people struggling with addiction.

As intense as I make it sound in this post, I'm really very fortunate that I don't have any of these serious addictions.

I wanted to be sure to publish this comment though, so that anyone that really is struggling with something more serious than an iced venti soy chai craving will have a wonderful resource!

Thanks so much for sharing this.