I think for almost everyone, the holidays are an unbelievable roller coaster.
... up... - the baby is so joyful, she's opening her presents, I love life!
...down... - the snow is keeping us from driving to DC, I'm missing cousins and aunts assembled from across the country and they are missing the baby's first Christmas. (And her babyhood, since there is no financial way that I can visit all four states: CA, AZ, MI, and VA for the cost of a drive down to DC. It seems the irony of my life right now - all the time in the world and not the money to take advantage of it). In general, I kind of hate this modern world where friends and family are scattered. The people I love the most, that I want Emmah to see regularly, live in: GA, MA, NY, ME, IL, MI, AZ, CA, MD, VA,and other assorted places. She's already a seasoned traveler because of it, but I just wish they all lived less than an hour or two away. I miss them (alot of you read this blog... I miss you).
...up...- super sleep over and visit with friends, interview next week, and a fun visit to the city!
...down...- trip to the city ending in minor traffic accident, sore body, tired spirit.
So as I head into this new year, I'm going to try to ride along without feeling the push-pull of it all so much. I would like a bit more even keel, regardless of whether I meet my goals or not. I'd like us all to be healthy and happy and sane.
(Sorry for the blurry camera-phone photos, but I think the fun and laughter find their way through.)