Over the course of this spring, at completely unpredictable moments, I've been suffering from what must be panic attacks.
Out of the blue, with no warning, I go from being excited about something I'm doing to feeling like I might just puke, followed by the feeling that I will pass out. Since I have a history of fainting, I get myself all worked up that I'm going to faint, but then - magically - I am okay and back to whistling a happy tune and skipping down the street.
The first time it happened was at the event with Dave Eggers and Valentino Ackek Deng. And it just happened in a meeting where I needed to present information about my job to a committee of Board Members and faculty. But its happened at least 3 other times.
So I was probably turning ten shades of red, sitting there in the big, fancy conference room thinking, "if this is a physical issue, then I'll faint and be done with it, if however its a mental/emotional issue then I'll be fine."
Well, I was fine while presenting, then in the break-out discussion it started up again, then I was fine again while presenting, and now that it's completely over, of course I'm fine again.
So, therefore and forthwith, here is the issue: I'm crazy. No problem.